Sometimes i am thinking. What i am doing with my life?
I pick up a lot of Hobbys. But never master them. I try to master them in a short time. But it never works.
If you want to be good at something you have to do it everyday for a very long time. Later you can show off you work.
It worked with guitar. But i don’t play anymore. I feel like i just hit the wall. Big wall of bricks. I can dig a little hole step by step. Dig with my notes and composing music. But it would take so much time! And i felt kinda bored.
I wanted to discover new paths. New paths in my life which would open my mind a little. I was closed just for music for so much time! I started to forget that there are other possibilities. I started to draw. Started programming, checked 3d moddeling.
I am thinking about changing my Path!
And internet is my guide.
I thinked about making it more “acceptable” and decided to overpaint the sketches :
How we know something is expensive? We need to see the difference first. There are no expensive goods if there aren´t cheap ones. I am always wondering, why are people running for money? It´s important to live. Yes! I know it! And if we have much we want always more. More money. More goods. More houses. But people are forgetting. It doesn´t matter what you got. What does matter is what you know. If you are a smart guy you can get money faster.
What does it mean someone is smart?
To be smart you need to read a lot of books first. Books. I love books! How can i describe a person? I just need to look on the bookshelf. What does this kind of person likes to read? Well… if he\she doesn´t read anything, or have never read a book in his\her life, than probably the person can´t talk very well. Bookaholics are great People! It´s interesting to speak with them. They have always a topic. Well… in books are a lot of dialogues. That can help in developing a conversation flow. Books are great! They open new Worlds. You meet new People! And you don´t even have to leave the House 🙂
If you are a Wise Guy you can get a good paid Job. It´s simple. Master in something. Read a lot of books. Like math books. Don´t like math? Read Fantasy books and start to draw. A lot of Fantasy Freaks have great imagination. That can help in simple life. Everything you do has a mirrored picture in your life. Everything you do creates a new you!
What about money? Money doesn´t matter! Do what you like and be happy with it. Money comes. Not now. Not tommorow. But one day…
I know that it´s today. The day of all lovers. And guess what? I´m happy! I am enjoying their happines. I know that one day i am going to be happy too, so why destroy their happy moment? It´s a very boring topic anyway. I am not going to talk about it. There are better topics than Valentines.
Dreams! Everybody has them. I want to share my art with others. I´m a bad artist at the moment. Well… i can play guitar. I think i am good with it. I am playing 5 years already. Everyday. It was the first thing with which i started and i enjoyed from the beginning. I love music. I love to create something. I developed a very good “ear”. Yeah! Everyone can make music. I rememeber that i couldnt play and i was very bad at it. But i didin´t gave up and i am happy with it. I experienced every moment of it and shaped the “thing”.
What is the “thing”? It´s something that you get if you are very good at something and can share with other people. You know that you spend a lot of time mastering in “this” skill and you know that you can be good at everything. The only thing you need to do is to practice. As much as you can. Everyday. At least one hour a day.
I am not going to give up with guitar. But i am thinking of starting digitial drawing or programming. I did it before. I know C++, little Java and little C# but i was more focused on music than those skills. I drawed before. I made animations, drawed characters (mostly). But i didn´t gave all myself for it. I started with music. I was focused mostly on it. And i did it! I mastered this skill. I can play more, but the problem is… i can´t find a band. There are people who play guitar, drums, bass, but they are beginners. They don`t have the factor X. They don´t give full heart for it. They just want to be famous, get girls, get money. Well… music is not that about.